Posts tagged "pain"

 Answered lovelyquestions’s post tonight:

what is your greatest fear? 

Thanks for the inspiration lovelyquestions—and for giving me a reason to think about something I usually am too afraid to think about.

     Maze

We met so young,
I don’t remember what it means to feel alone.
We were both so lost
when we found each other in this maze.
Our friends always ask:
aren’t you afraid you settled too soon?
My only fear is that I might live
longer than you.

‘Cause I am strong—
there’s no doubt.
But me has been we for so long,
I don’t know who I’d be on my own.

We’re still lost in that labyrinth,
dazed and confused.
Misery loves Company
as much as I love you.
As long as we’re together,
I can be lost in here forever.
My only fear is that I might live
longer than you.

‘Cause I am strong—
there’s no doubt.
But me has been we for so long,
I don’t know who I’d be on my own.

My only fear is that I might live
longer than you.

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I wrote this song after Kate Nash binging; it features very barebones guitar work and heavy lyricism. Because of the title, I devote it to two blogs with great images of bruises: bruisesbruise and sweetly-soft-kisses. Because of the meaning, I devote it to xthefuckingdistance (which captures the message of this song in its URL and its content). Thanks for the inspiration, bloggers. And I hope you enjoy, everyone! — K.C.

     Bruise

When I say the wrong thing at the wrong time,
and I hurt you even just a little bit,
a big part of me wants to die,
as silly as that sounds.

And I know it ain’t right for me to care that much;
it ain’t right for me to care like I do.
My defenses are down, and I’m bound to get bruised.

But I’ll take the bruises with a smile
if I get to keep you here a while.

You won’t always be here because no one ever is.
All the magic I say you have can’t escape this.
But I won’t run away because you’re brave and stay
even though I may be the one to leave one day.
A day too soon ‘cause any day would be too soon.

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And I get to keep you here a while.
Yeah, love, we’re a timebomb, and we just can’t read the clock.
and I dread the bang, and I dread knowing it could be any day…

It probably ain’t right…
REFRAIN
CHORUS

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This was the fourth song written in the CI studio last Friday; it was a very productive day that ended with Eli suddenly, furiously belting out this tune. The recording is raw because, per usual, I can’t get the man to sit down for longer than one take. It’s about that woman again—the woman who got away. You can read about her and his quest to find her in the description to Eli’s first album, here. Tonight’s track is devoted to these cool/interesting blogs we found searching #blues and #snake: girlvsthecynic, jake-blues, snakepeople (so wonderfully weird), fuckyeahsnakes, and s-n-a-k-e. Check them out! We’re dropping this post quick tonight; Eli and I had a dozen good song ideas today and got some great requests from followers, so we need to get to writing. Here’s to another four song night! Enjoy everyone. And, if you do, share it. — K.C.

     Cold Blooded Snake

Why’d you leave? Was it for another man?
Did he treat you right in ways I can’t?
And now you’re back and expect me to let you in
to the void you made when you left.

You’re as cold blooded as a snake
if you think I didn’t mourn your loss.
But I’ve been better off
since you’ve been gone,
you snake, you snake.

And you dare think that you can just slink
back into this warm bed.
But I remember you, all of you,
that means the good and the bad.

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You can take your venom elsewhere.
I don’t want to buy what you sell.
And if the choice is between you or living slow,
I choose to skip your poison and die alone.

CHORUS

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Were you ever hurt so much by a lover that it made you doubt the next one?

If so, like this post; or even answer the question by telling us a bit about your experience. Elijah Cash is working on a song of hope about just this problem, and we’re looking for people to devote it to. Thanks in advance for sharing. — K.C.


This song is for Felicity at loveletmesleep. We’ve been chatting about life and love, and I’ve been reading her blog, and I was inspired to write about trying to get over an old love. She never said this is something she desires, but the words we’ve shared made me remember when I was trying to shake someone out of my mind. It wasn’t easy. I lost a lot of sleep. But she finally left, and someone else came to occupy my mind. Tonight, writing this song for Felicity, and remembering her…well, she made me lose sleep again, for old time’s sake. Thanks for reminding me of her and some good memories, Felicity. Enjoy the music, friends. — K.C.

     Love, Let Me Sleep

Feel it through my words:
your truths you cannot hide.
Your lies made good company,
but such friends are not shy.
See it through my eyes:
the glow I put around you.
And you turned off the light
to be a shadow of yourself.

Love, let me sleep. I want to dream
of better days, without you.

Listen through my ears
to the sound of your voice:
the one sound I trusted
to never leave.
Read it across my face
like the letters I sent across the ocean
to your hands,
the same hands that once held me.
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I just asked the Tumblrverse for some input on the lyrics; a-green-unicorn suggested “lonely girl in the sky-just trying to find to find an alibi”, and in-laymans-terms said “my initial thought was ‘be free’ she needs to release herself from the pain of her lost father”. I took this input and the request and came up with this song, “Alibi”. I didn’t mention the loss of the father specifically, but it’s there, stopping the girl from loving me; the girl avoids her pain (and all feelings) by staying up in the clouds—in a safe place in her head. I just want to prove to her that right here and right now—with me—is a good time to be alive, despite her painful past. Considering that I wrote and recorded this in less than two hours, I’m very pleased with how it turned out. This song is devoted to lifeandtimesoftheresafrances for the initial request, and to a-green-unicorn and in-laymans-terms for contributing to my lyrics. Thank you, bloggers! Enjoy, everyone! — Kavalier Calm

     Alibi

I know I can’t understand your pain;
but you can’t understand the joy I can bring.
Lonely girl up in the sky;
I can be your alibi.
Let me prove to you: you ain’t in the wrong place or wrong time.

I know you were given a raw deal
even if I can’t know how you feel.
Your head’s all in the clouds,
and the rain’s coming down.
Lonely girl, tears falling from the sky,
I can be your alibi.
Let me prove to you: you ain’t in the wrong place or wrong time.

Your heart’s in a prison;
let me set it free.
(I can be your alibi.)

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1/2 a bottle of wine + 1/2 a night of feeling sorry for myself = 1 song. Close your eyes and listen. By the second chorus, you should be able to sing along. And feel along? If we can sing along with songs, why couldn’t we feel along? I bet you can with this one. I decided I’d search the #cry tag and dedicate this song to the first cool blogger I found. Jessica of pandywarhol, I hope this song speaks to you on some level because you are beautiful and seem wonderful. Special thanks to everyone who contributed to the lyrical process. Much love. — Kavalier

     Cry, Baby, Cry

I won’t pretend to know how it feels.
But, darlin’, I swear I’ve been hurt, too.
If life’s got you down,
then there’s only one thing left to do.

Cry, baby, cry, baby, cry.
Let it all out and let me in.
And I will soak up your tears.

Bottle it up if you wish,
but don’t act surprised when you explode.
You think it’s a sign of weakness,
but only the brave lighten their load.
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Just let them fall, let your tears fall.

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Chris asked me to write a song for his girlfriend, Gabrielle; she struggles with suicidal thoughts, and he said music is the only thing that consistently makes her happy. I admit writing this was scary. I wish I believed my music was enough to convince someone to stay with us. All I could do was try. Gabrielle, I’ve never met you, but I know I want you to stay. For Chris, for anyone who may meet you in the future, for yourself. You are too beautiful and full of fascinating stories to go. I don’t need to meet you to know this is true. — Kavalier Calm
     
     Gabrielle

Gabrielle, I know the reasons seem
few to carry on, but music holds you
still—oh, I beg that you wait,
until my song’s through
to go.

Gabrielle, I can’t read your
mind but I know you’re too kind
to turn away, while I confess my love,
and beg for you to wait
to go.

Gabrielle, this song is my only
spell, and I hope the magic holds you
still until my song’s through.

Gabrielle, I wrote this tune to never
end, til I’m out of breath,
til the night turns to day, I beg you to wait
to go.
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