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  •  Answered lovelyquestions's post tonight:

    what is your greatest fear? 

    Thanks for the inspiration lovelyquestions—and for giving me a reason to think about something I usually am too afraid to think about.

         Maze

    We met so young,
    I don’t remember what it means to feel alone.
    We were both so lost
    when we found each other in this maze.
    Our friends always ask:
    aren’t you afraid you settled too soon?
    My only fear is that I might live
    longer than you.

    'Cause I am strong—
    there’s no doubt.
    But me has been we for so long,
    I don’t know who I’d be on my own.

    We’re still lost in that labyrinth,
    dazed and confused.
    Misery loves Company
    as much as I love you.
    As long as we’re together,
    I can be lost in here forever.
    My only fear is that I might live
    longer than you.

    'Cause I am strong—
    there’s no doubt.
    But me has been we for so long,
    I don’t know who I’d be on my own.

    My only fear is that I might live
    longer than you.

    I wrote this song after Kate Nash binging; it features very barebones guitar work and heavy lyricism. Because of the title, I devote it to two blogs with great images of bruises: bruisesbruise and sweetly-soft-kisses. Because of the meaning, I devote it to xthefuckingdistance (which captures the message of this song in its URL and its content). Thanks for the inspiration, bloggers. And I hope you enjoy, everyone! — K.C.

         Bruise

    When I say the wrong thing at the wrong time,
    and I hurt you even just a little bit,
    a big part of me wants to die,
    as silly as that sounds.

    And I know it ain’t right for me to care that much;
    it ain’t right for me to care like I do.
    My defenses are down, and I’m bound to get bruised.

    But I’ll take the bruises with a smile
    if I get to keep you here a while.

    You won’t always be here because no one ever is.
    All the magic I say you have can’t escape this.
    But I won’t run away because you’re brave and stay
    even though I may be the one to leave one day.
    A day too soon ‘cause any day would be too soon.

    REFRAIN
    CHORUS

    And I get to keep you here a while.
    Yeah, love, we’re a timebomb, and we just can’t read the clock.
    and I dread the bang, and I dread knowing it could be any day…

    It probably ain’t right…
    REFRAIN
    CHORUS

    I just got a very touching message from Melody over at carrotseatrabbits. Melody has listened to most of my songs (a daunting task, I’d say!), and she wanted to tell me that the one that meant the most to her was “Maze”, a tune I posted all the way back in December. Without sharing her story, I can say that she does understand and feel the meaning of this song. This is special for me because after listening to all of my songs, she identified one that holds a lot of meaning to me, too. I always create with passion and intensity even though the story I am telling is usually someone else’s/based on a request. But a few of the songs on this blog are truly me, and it’s fascinating to me that one of these stood out to Melody. Maybe it’s just a coincidence. Or maybe it suggests that there is something extra when it comes from the heart, an intangible that can be heard. Melody, per your request, you and others can download this song here. I just finished re-recording it specifically for you; the first version was recorded before I got my 8-track, and the audio levels were very imbalanced. I’m also including the chord progressions with the lyrics because you said you are a piano player. Enjoy. And thank you very much for listening. — K.C.

         Maze

    G
    We met so young,
    D                             Am
    I don’t remember what it means to feel alone.
    We were both so lost
    when we found each other in this maze.
    Our friends always ask:
    aren’t you afraid you settled too soon?
    My only fear is that I might live
    Am        G     D
    longer than you.

    F
    'Cause I am strong—
    G
    there is no doubt.
    Am          G            D
    But me has been we for so long,
    Am          G            D
    I don’t know who I’d be on my own.

    We’re still lost in that labyrinth,
    dazed and confused.
    Misery loves company
    as much as I love you.
    As long as we’re together,
    I can be lost in here forever.
    My only fear is that I might live
    longer than you.
    CHORUS

    My only fear is that I might live
    longer than you.

    Recently, I received an encouraging message about my music from CT at ctchrysler. When I bounced to his blog to say thank you, I fell into a world of beautiful art and music. I asked CT if I could write an audio response to a bit of his visual work, and he pointed me to this beautiful image of a woman. I instantly felt a darkness and a pain surrounding this character, and CT told me he imagined her as someone who had been wronged so many times in life that she “died and became a vengeful spirit.” I thought about her for days. She wouldn’t let me sleep. So late last night, I climbed out of bed and wrote this spoken-word piece. I used near-rhymes and broken meter to create clunky and painful dissonance. I recorded it in my best, eerie monotone. It’s morbid. So wonderfully morbid. I won’t apologize for this, but I will warn my followers that this isn’t my typical happy stuff. I have a deep passion for horror films, and it was fun to try my hand at the genre. And before you ask: no, I do not condone suicide. I do think revenge is pretty awesome, but considering most of us probably lack the magical ability of the girl in my story, I would say the best way to get revenge is to live. Flourish, be successful, and rub it in the face of your demons. Anyway, thanks for inspiring me, CT. Much love, everybody. — Kavalier Calm

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    Me: Why is vulnerability sexy?
    You: What do you mean?
    Me: When you are worried about something and telling me about your fears, I want to kiss your mouth...I guess I want to make you feel better, and some part of me knows words won't help.
    You: I don't know why you feel this way...But I give you full permission to kiss my mouth whenever I'm afraid.